Anxiety Overwhelming? How I dealt with a recent bad patch.

Good morning, fuzzbutts!

Been a busy couple of weeks for me. The job has been working me hard. I’m trying to close a deal on a home. I’ve been talking to various parties on how to get this home purchase done. I’m trying to find the time to draw. I’m working around my folks’ home to improve the place as much as possible before I move (landscaping mostly). I’ve been sleeping really lousy and I noticed I’m starting to get a little shaky in my hands sometimes. When I flop into bed at night, my heart starts to pound and, in spite of how tired I feel, I can’t fall asleep for a long while. When I do sleep lately, I wake up 2-3 times in the middle of the night. Gee whiz! How could anyone not feel so stressed?

The first thing I had to do was realized I was stressed. Not just temporary quick stress but prolonged, untreated stress. Even though I knew I was tired and not sleeping well, it was tough to recognize I was stressed. Once I knew I was really stressed out, I had to figure out why I was stressing. I tallied up the reasons why I was stressed and then needed a way to deal with it. Just diagnosing all of this took a lot of processing.

So what did I do? Normally, sleeping better would be the first step. In spite of trying to sleep better, I wasn’t able to stop waking up in the middle of the night. It was worsening a difficult situation but it wasn’t the cause of my stress. Normally I get stressed due to a lack of sleep but this was me lacking sleep due to stress. I had other things to focus on if I wanted to improve my sleep.

One, I had to stop trying to rush the process on the home buying. Yes, a labor day weekend to move all my stuff and settle in would be nice. No, I can’t actually rush through the paperwork and get all parties to sign it immediately. No it’s not so bad to only have a two-day weekend to move my stuff. Yes I am excited to move into my own home. No, I don’t have to keep talking about moving to everyone or asking for random advice.

Two, just because I was moving didn’t mean I had to rush fixing up the folks’ home. I wasn’t moving super far and would still have weekends to help out if my parents need it. It’s physically demanding enough without me forcing it to happen with everything else going on.

Finding time to draw turned out to be one of the easier things to resolve. During lunch at work, I eat my meal and head to my car. I brave the heat to sit in my car and draw for a while. I don’t care to have coworkers see my furry art and I’d rather keep my time after work to hit the gym. Still, I find this time of the day to give me the least amount of mental resistance and I sometimes surprise myself with a quality piece I enjoyed making.

As far as work, I decided to pace myself better. I have some control of my time and I had been rushing to get as much done in as short a time as possible. If I schedule appropriately, I can get everything done without running around like a wuff with his head cut off. Also, while scheduling my own work, I volunteered any free time between tasks to helping others get their own work done. One of the most satisfying evenings was helping somebody who had to work extra late and save them a few hours of time. Getting out of my head and dedicating a few hours to helping somebody was so helpful.

Last night was the first night in a while I slept well. It’s not like the stress magically went away. It’s still there. I’m still dealing with it but it’s manageable again. Much of the rest will go away with time and once I get through the situation with moving and home purchasing. I also enjoy the thought that my commute will drop by more than half and I’ll have way more free time overall. Things are looking up, even if I got pretty down recently.

Going for Walkies!

Hello fuzzbutts!

One thing I think a lot of us could work on some more is getting outside more often. It’s not the common furry that goes out and about to try new things or see new places. I’m very guilty of this, myself. I’m not even talking about in-suit. I just mean going out. The world around you can be fascinating and beautiful. So why not explore and see if there’s anything out there?

Well, I’m not really into just going out on my own so I started inviting friends. They’ve been working on their own levels of fitness and they were open to hanging out and going for walks around some of the areas none of us really checked out. Top of a mountain that people walk up regularly or a long trail that ends in a waterfall. It’s all enjoyable and you’ll hopefully feel a sense of accomplishment that you finally did something like that. Go with friends. An 8-mile hike might feel pretty daunting by yourself but friends make it amazing and fun. So look up some trails and interesting areas around your place and invite your pals to go with you!

Another thing I might try experimenting with is leading a group. Once I feel comfortable checking out a lot of these hikes and trails, I might start inviting more and more furries and make it a furmeet type of thing, only health-helping.

Good luck fuzzbutts!

Race Review and Muscle Healing!

Hello fuzzbutts!

So I did the Spartan Sprint on Saturday. It was a blast but my conditioning was just not there. A factor in that might be that I sold a pint of blood within 2 weeks of the race. Apparently it takes 6 weeks for the average person to recover that much. On the other hand, I don’t do a ton of very long distance running on hilly areas. This was up dirt trails and steep paths for long distances. I did better on the obstacles than I thought I would but I kept having to take a knee to catch my breath.

Now it’s Wednesday and I’m still feeling a bit of soreness so I started looking up the best ways to recover from muscle soreness and found a few that are easy to do.


Proper sleep allows your body to heal better. Lack of sleep also results in worse recovery so you need to go to bed on time!


Stretching your muscles after a workout improves circulation, allowing the nutrients to flow over your muscles and hasten the healing.


Staying hydrated also works with your circulation, compounding with the stretching to help you heal quicker.

Light Massage

To keep you healing well, massages also improve circulation and reduce tightness in your muscles (like stretching!).

Overall, I’m not very satisfied with my performance and now I want to train more for longer distances over crazier terrain. Maybe look into a water pack because I was dying of thirst the whole time. I’ll probably be doing more long distance running too, taking on some 5ks this coming year and a half marathon too! It’ll be a blast!

Have fun, furries!

Knocking out those negative voices!

Rawr! Intense wuff!

So yesterday morning I looked up the obstacle course and some of it looks intense! Of course, my brain did what many brains might do- tell me I couldn’t do it. I see something that looks awkward or I haven’t done before and a powerful voice in my head says “You should quit. That’s too much. You aren’t ready for that.” And then builds onto my anxiety. Before I began to imitate the cowardly lion, I caught myself and realized my brain was trying to push me right back into my safe bubble. It’s an obstacle course full of people I don’t know! So what if I end up looking silly on some of them and doing the penalty burpees? As difficult as some of it looks, there’s no realistic reason to expect to get hurt!

Even when you think rationally, your mind can still build thoseĀ feelings of anxiety or other issues. One way of dealing with it is channeling that energy. Being anxious just keeps you stressed so turn that energy into something else! By imagining the negative voice as a separate entity from myself, I can see it as something to be irritated by, converting that anxiety into annoyance which is something I can work with.

You’re not prepared enough.” POW! I’m going to lay out what I’m going to wear. “You don’t know how to do that! You’ve never done that before!” KABOOM! I’m going to try! Not like there’s a bunch of places with a hanging rope I can practice climbing. I can at least watch videos to learn what the technique is supposed to be so I can try when I get there. “You’re not strong enough.” BIFF! I’m way stronger than I was and I’ve never tested myself before so what do you know about what I can and can’t do? “It’s going to go badly.” WHACK! It won’t but even if it does, I can always sign up for another one and train more with a better idea of what I need to work on!

So yeah. My own technique is to make the negative voice something separate you can fight against. Channel the energy into something you can use like developing plans or working harder toward your goals!

Good luck, fuzzbutts!

Rest week for the big day!

That feeling when you wake up Monday, go to work, and realize you missed your weekend post!

Keeping that in mind, my Spartan race is this Saturday. I have no idea what to expect or how I will do but there’s only one thing left for me to do to prepare.

Rest! If you’re training for anything physically intense, train early and often. However, as the date approaches, you have to slow down. The last thing you want is to be sore or risking injury to yourself on the big day. You want to be rested, comfortable, and loose. Sleep well, eat right, and take it easy. You want to be feeling 100% for the event.

So what’s the plan? Making sure I eat good food that you don’t prepare in the microwave for several minutes. Go to bed a little earlier each night so I can make sure I get enough sleep. Lastly, just enough exercise to move blood around- easy walks, light weights, lots of stretching. Keeping these things in my plan, I’ll be as ready as possible. Wait a second, I can check youtube to learn about the obstacles and see the type of things I can expect.

I’mĀ  betting this race is going to be super fun even though I’m nervous and a bit anxious as the day approaches. It’s one of those things that is pushing me out of my comfort zone into new experiences. I hope you’re looking for something new to try out. In fact, hit the Contact Wuffles link to the left and let me know what sort of new experience you’re after. I could always use new ideas!

Wednesday Tailtip: Burpee Challenge

Hi fuzzbutts!

So I have a little less than a couple of weeks now before my big Spartan race. I’m pretty darn excited for it and have been doing some training. Probably not enough training but I’ve never done this before so I truly don’t know how much is enough. I’ll definitely be learning something in the process.

One warning a coworker gave me is that if you can’t pass an obstacle, you gotta do burpees to continue. I had heard of them and had seen them done but never really had them as part of my routine. So I decided to practice those. Holy hooves am I glad I did. These things are hard, especially at the start when the muscle memory wasn’t there and I was starting to fall over after a few in a row. I would have been in trouble if I waited to do them at the race.

Since learning how to actually do them, I realized they are awesome for working out. They’ll get your heart pounding, work out your legs and check muscles and core in every rep. A few sets of those and you’ll be sweating like you went on a run. I’m a big advocate for them now!

So if you’re looking for a way to up your workout, start incorporating burpees. There’s videos on youtube and other sites on proper burpee technique. As a tip I didn’t know initially, spread your legs a little wider than your arms when you jump forward and also when you’re coming back down. It’ll be easier to keep your balance and you won’t fall over the place like a derpy wuff.

Gratitude Time!

Hi Fuzzbutts!

In this time of thanksgiving and the upcoming holiday tomorrow, I feel it’s time to go through our lives and look at things we can be grateful for.

I’m grateful for a supportive family. I’m grateful for those I’ve met in the fandom that are such cool and accepting people. I’m grateful to be born in the USA. I’m grateful for this drive to improve myself. I’m grateful I bought my fursuit before my suit mama raised prices. These are all obvious goods to me and are easy to list off.

How about something you usually regard as negative? Well my job has been frustrating me a lot lately with so little to do that I don’t feel it’s meaningful yet I have to sit there and deal with a lot of fallout from office politics at the higher levels. Well I’m grateful that, in spite of how I feel, people do see me as an authority in my group and I have their respect. I appreciate that the lack of things-to-do lets me carry out some of the worksafe tasks (like journaling or goal-setting or online courses) that I couldn’t do if I was busy all day. I’m grateful I can turn around how I feel about my job and put energy into sending out my resume to other places.

What about a problematic family member? “I’m grateful that my mom was so crazy that it drove me to become independent earlier than most people. My brother is really annoying but he’s always had my back when things got rough. My sister was a huge pain but I’m grateful that she could always give me advice.”

It doesn’t work for everything but it doesn’t have to. The point is to come up with a list of things you’re grateful for and to give thanks for. Realize that even if you’re just reading this blog, you can be grateful that WordPress is hosting it. You can be grateful that I took the time to write this post, that electricity is being provided to you, that you are actually exploring areas of your life to better yourself!

Fitting in exercise!

Hello fuzzbutts!

One thing I enjoy doing is working in some exercise in my day. If you’ve been following for a bit, you might have read that I enjoy working out in the mornings. Yes! It’s the best time for me to squeeze in some running or something before going to work. That being said, especially lately, I don’t always have the energy in the mornings.

One reason might be my lack of a workout partner to motivate me to get out of bed no matter how tired I am. Somebody being around to work out with would be helpful to push myself. Unfortunately, the teeny gym by my work doesn’t really have anyone on the same schedule as me so there’s not really a workout partner there.

Another reason for my recent fatigue in the mornings is probably the fact my family is moving and this might be some residual stress. So maybe a little meditation might be helpful. By the middle of the day I’m usually ok so, for now, I know what I need to do.

Work out after work! That’s the plan for myself now. I’ll feel better when I get home and I’ll sleep better. Traffic will be a little worse but it works for my schedule so that’s what’s important. Hopefully, I hope you’re finding the best workout time for yourself because, as fuzzbutts, we need it! Plus, I’ve found cardio to be very helpful for fursuiting!

As a last note for right now, I will be at AZFC in less than 2 weeks! If you’ve read my blog and enjoyed it, I’d love it if you said hello! I look forward to another fun convention!

Good luck, fuzzbutts!

When it all comes crumbling down

Hello fuzzbutts.

That headline alone probably hit you in the feels. That’s ok. We’ve all hit those roadblocks. Those times where our plans suddenly fall through the floor or go up in smoke. Those times when you want a little support and nobody seems to have the time or the words. Things are breaking down and you’re on the verge of panic. The rough times. The etc etc.

Often times, there’s not much you can do about it. You have a couple of straws to grasp at but they don’t give you the sense of control to help you feel better. So here’s a couple of pieces of advice.

Stop. Just stop. Take a breath and calm down. Your mind is racing and telling you that there’s no time but there is. You need to pause and take control of your thoughts. Do some free-writing on the subject and you will feel a little more calm.

Keeps the lines of communication open. People who might not have been there when it happened when you were at your lowest might be there later. Accept their support if and when it arrives.

Finally, most of these things will pass. I’ve had plenty of cases in my life where it felt like my life was being flipped upside down, grinding my teeth at night, and waking up with a sense of dread. So what happened? I don’t remember. For something to make me feel so worried and panicked, I can’t even remember now. I remember how I felt but not the event. Think back to the last time this happened to you and realize the event wasn’t so terrible or at least helped you become the fuzzbutt you are now. This is different but it’s not THAT different.

When the problem hits, establish a little sense of calm in your life. Then realize this event might be changing your life but you are in control of how you respond to it. You’ll make it, fuzzbutts. Good luck out there.

Don’t blow up your problems

Good morning, fuzzbutts!

Ever have that problem where you suddenly have an unwanted expense and you can’t help but realize that now you won’t be able to afford rent and now you’re going to be homeless and then you’re going to never recover and then you’re going to die alone? From some smaller incident, you suddenly realize your entire world is going to crash down around you? Yeah it gets to the best of us!

It’s actually pretty common. Here’s one I had gone through a while back. I had just moved out on my own and was learning how to make my way. While driving from the gym, a rock was kicked up by a truck and chipped my windshield. It was a tiny chip, like maybe 1/8th the size of a dime. My mind couldn’t help but spiral out of control. That chip has to be fixed. I have to pay to get it fixed and take time out to take it somewhere. I won’t be able to afford rent this month (without having a clue how expensive the repair would be). I made a huge mistake moving out on my own. I’m going to have to tuck my tail between my legs, lose all my money, and move back in with the folks and never recover. Oh boy. All this from what turned out to be a $35 repair and a little over an hour at a repair shop. At the time, this calamity made perfect sense because I wasn’t aware of one tool that would have helped then and still helps me now when things get rough.

First, something happens and you can feel your mind slipping into “Oh NO!” mode. When this happens, pull out a piece of paper, scrap paper or not, and then write out the catastrophe. Then, thinking as horrible and dark as you can, write one or two of the worst possible outcomes from this situation. Finally, write five more reasonable outcomes from this situation. They’re not as bad as you think. Are there any good possibilities from this situation (I’ve never had to deal with this kind of repair before so now it’s a new experience)? By the time you’re done writing the more realistic outcomes, you’re feeling a lot better. Lastly, write out something you can do in this situation (notify insurance and find repair shops).

Fuzzbutts, if you do this, you’ll find the stressful situations in life can often be less stressful, preserving your mind and your health. Give this a shot the next time the apocalypse decides to drop into your lap. Good luck out there fuzzbutts!


Edit: Also wanted to give a shout out to my friend BoxCat aka Boz aka BoseCat for the new icon. I commissioned a new logo for my site and business cards and they did an awesome job!